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A mental health advocate, sharing personal experiences and insights on overcoming compulsive gambling and nurturing complicated family relationships.

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Welcome to my digital diary, where I tackle compulsive gambling, untangle family ties, and grow daily. Join me for quirky reflections and genuine recovery insights in this journey to craft a better life. Buckle up it’s a bumpy, beautiful ride!

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Chapter 14: Sorry My Recovery Does Not Make Me Shrink

Sorry my recovery does not look like yours. Sorry my twelve-step is not your twelve-step. Sorry I did not come out of the wreckage softer, quieter, prettier, and grateful for every terrible thing that happened to me. That was never going to be me. For a long time, I thought redemption meant becoming acceptable. Calm. Forgiving. Easy to understand. Easy to support. Easy to clap for. The kind of recovery story people like because it does not ask too much of them. The kind where

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Chapter 14: Sorry My Recovery Does Not Make Me Shrink

Sorry my recovery does not look like yours. Sorry my twelve-step is not your twelve-step. Sorry I did not come out of the wreckage softer, quieter, prettier, and grateful for every terrible thing that happened to me. That was never going to be me. For a long time, I thought redemption meant becoming acceptable. Calm. Forgiving. Easy to understand. Easy to support. Easy to clap for. The kind of recovery story people like because it does not ask too much of them. The kind where

2 days ago5 min read

Chapter 13: Healing Without Peace: Smiling While Breaking

The truth is… I’m not healing in peace right now. There’s no quiet space to fall apart and rebuild. No pause. No escape. Just life; loud, constant, and demanding. I’m in a loveless marriage that drains more than it gives. I’m raising a child who needs me every day, no matter what I’m carrying inside. I’m surrounded by friends who only see pieces of the story, half the truth, never the full weight. And still… I have to heal. Not in a safe, calm environment. Not when everything

5 days ago2 min read

Chapter 12: Stormer in a World That Praises Jem

I knew who I was at six years old and it wasn’t the person the world rewards. This might sound abstract, but stay with me. When I was six or seven, I used to watch an old cartoon called Jem and the Holograms . It was about two rival bands. One was polished, admired, everything the world celebrates. The other, The Misfits; were louder, rougher, a little chaotic. And in that second group, there was one character who didn’t quite fit. Her name was Stormer. Stormer was in the “b

Apr 82 min read

Chapter 11: The Night I Did the Impossible

Last night, I did something I had been avoiding for a long time, I reached out to a friend I met in Gamblers Anonymous in 2024. On the surface, it may not sound like much, but for me it felt enormous, because what I was really doing was beginning to release something that no longer served me. For a long time, I had carried the weight of my gambling quietly the financial damage, the emotional toll, the frustration of trying to untangle everything after the fact. When I reached

Apr 42 min read

Chapter 10: Some Things Don’t Stay Buried

Disclaimer: This post references sexual assault, trauma responses, medical triggering, and gambling relapse/urges. I do not always add content warnings, but I believe in taking a gender-based violence-informed approach and understand that these topics may be difficult for some readers. All 10 of you :) I don’t want to go into every detail. But years ago, in a back room of a restaurant, an older man sexually assaulted me. I never told anyone. Not my friends, not my family. I

Mar 314 min read

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