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Chapter 4: The Perfect Mother

My mom, the epitome of control and perfection during my childhood, always maintained an impeccable image. Educated, functional, and seemingly perfect in every way, she was the backbone of our family, handling everything with grace and efficiency. Her obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) was her secret battle, manifesting in a relentless focus on cleanliness and order that influenced every aspect of our lives.

Her obsession with maintaining a perfect image extended beyond personal appearance to encompass how our entire family was perceived. This facade of perfection was critical to her but masked deeper vulnerabilities. As time passed, her need for control found an outlet in a seemingly harmless hobby that escalated far beyond her usual boundaries.

 
 
 

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